I won’t pretend it didn’t hurt
I won’t pretend like my heart wasn’t broken
Shattered into pieces
I won’t pretend my dream of a whole family wasn’t ripped from my arms before I even had the chance to grasp it fully
I can’t pretend to make you feel better
I can’t pretend I didn’t sufferer irrevocable amounts of trauma
I can’t pretend the mere mention isn’t a trigger that jabs at my soul stealing every breath in my body
I won’t pretend my pain isn’t real
Valid
Still traumatic
I won’t pretend like it’s all ok now
Because it’s not and it may never be….
But I will move forward
I will hold my head high
I will protect myself and those I love against further affliction
I will push past the PAST