My worst enemy is ME

I beat myself up

I can be my worst critic

My worst enemy on some days

Sometimes I make horrible decision

Then beat myself over the head with them in the days following

And for what

What’s done is done

I think it’s an after effect of emotional abuse

Once your abuser is gone

Emotionally you abuse yourself at times

Because it’s what your used to

Being made low

How do I climb out of this hole

I’m always climbing out

Better yet how do I stay out

When will the light stay

When will I stop having to chase it

I’m tired

Always tired of the fight

Purify me

Make this easy

Make me whole again

Was I ever while to begin with?

Krystal Hinton