Despite being pretty exhausted after a long day I decided to go to yoga to relax and get a good workout in. It was the normal flow yoga I always go to but the instructor isn’t my favorite. Don’t get me wrong she’s a great instructor I just don’t love her class style if that makes sense 🤔.
Here’s the thing in flow yoga they guide you through each pose telling you what to do. Anyone who knows me well knows I like knowing things…I’m a planner. When there is no plan well I tend to panic or give up. In this class the instructor only gave you direction twice through each flow and then you’re on your own 😨. What the what?!
She calmly walks through class saying if you forget a pose in the flow just keep going keep flowing. During a particularly complex flow I was so lost cause I couldn’t remember what was next. So in typical Krystal fashion only 1 of 2 things could happen in this scenario…panic or give up. So I gave up 🤷🏽♀️. I contemplated just walking out of the class but I just sat there & drank my water until the next sequence started.
When the next sequence started I got back to it and felt better about sticking it out and not walking out. In fact the instructor said something that caught my attention. She said we come here to practice to give ourselves “Space To Let Go”. A lot of times in life I don’t give myself space to let go.
In yoga we practice poses, we push through the difficult poses and then we release the pose, we allow our bodies to let go. Unfortunately in life I haven’t been doing the same. I face challenges or situations, I push through the difficult things but I don’t always let go or release them. I panic or give up but even then I still hold onto the negative feelings associated with the challenge. I don’t release.
So today I’m grateful I went to the yoga class with the instructor who isn’t my favorite.The instructor challenged me and taught me I need to make more space in my life to just let go. It’s ok to struggle, it’s ok to take a minute to process or take a break but when I do get back up I need to release. I need to allow myself the space to let it go.